I wasn't really talking about it in case I failed (yet again), but I thought I would come clean since it's going well. I stopped smoking. I had my last cigarette on October 5th and have now started my 10th tobacco free day.
It's so much easier when you're really (really) ready to stop. It's still not easy easy, but easier in general. I gave myself permision to eat guilt free for the first week and pretty much ate myself sick with chocolate and sugar. I'm now back on the healthy eating program to minimize damage and making an effort to get some exercise. It is enjoyable not feeling like I smell bad all the time. I don't know if it's due to the patches I'm wearing or the fact that I'm getting more oxygen to my brain, but I've been having the craziest dreams. I've been in a thriller with Brad Pitt and on a cruise with the Jonas Brothers. I don't even really know who the &*%# the Jonas Brothers are, I just see pictures of them around, but their Disneyness is in my head man!
The one downside to this is that my yards aren't getting watered because I'm not outside all the time anymore. Oh well, I hate most of those plants anyway. So, wish me luck. I've made it to the double digits, the next goal is triple digits.